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Treason. the point of no return
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As soon as the noise starts in my ears, a sticky cold fear creeps up my spine, adrenaline spreads through my body, my fingers go numb. How everything that was "before" is instantly erased, and only one thought pulsates in my head: "Why? Why me? For what? What should I do now?" how to live if everything that used to keep you afloat and seemed unshakable and stable suddenly turned into smoke that eats out your eyes, burns out the desert inside, kills any feelings?How now to touch the other, if he was with someone from the outside, how to let him back into yourself, let someone else's skin be in your bed?
I am sure that sexual desire is killed not by bad underwear, stretch marks or cellulite, but by the rupture of mental networks and loss of communication. Devoted trust causes disgust on the level of nausea and, in my opinion, is always a point of no return. The beginning of a new path, the decision on the direction of which you make yourself. And this decision cannot be delegated to friends, a psychologist or the church. Because it's not for them to decide the consequences, but for you. They will shake their heads, regret it and go about their business. And you go out and live....

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