Male perception and judgments in business and life and a completely female appearance create in people a breaking of the image of perception and I get condemnation or pity in response. Externally, there are no signs that I am an inner man. Long-haired blonde, makeup, skirts, heels, I look after myself in full. I look like a girl. I don't suffer from a lack of male attention at all. The problem is that I have masculine interests, a more masculine outlook on life. I am not emotional, reserved, tough, I do not create problems from scratch, I am independent. Even during the period of PMS, I do not suffer from tantrums and purely feminine troubles. It is very difficult for others with me because I do not fit into the portrait of a "typical" girl. I constantly hear accusations against me that a girl shouldn't be like that. And I don't want to be another and I can't. I do not know how to formulate my request differently, but I hope I have conveyed the essence of my problem. I became like this after the breakup of a relationship with the person I love. Before him, she was a little softer, a little more emotional, and yet there were some pink dreams in her head. After-as a hand removed all this. Lately I have been receiving wild condemnations or pity in my address, to which I do not react externally, but I worry internally. I understand that I am not "like everyone else" I want to save myself, not to break down, but I do not know how to resist.