But when you yourself are jealous, a real drama is played out inside. The sinews tremble with anxiety and the hands shake. Anger makes your jaws come together, but you can't express it, because the fear is then so huge that you are ready to roll around at the feet of the one you love. And also the feeling of one's own badness, uselessness, inadequacy and constant catastrophic fantasies.
Fantasies about how they are there together, how they look at each other, what they talk about, how they enjoy it, how they hide it all and how they laugh. Have you imagined it all?
I, of course, thickened the colors, but often the way it is. Jealousy immobilizes and brings immense inner torment, invisible to anyone. And on top of that, everything is covered with shame. The kind of shame that makes you gnaw yourself in silence. How much effort it takes! And it would be possible to put them into a constructive channel. Into the depths of yourself.
What do you think about jealousy?
Are you often jealous of your beloved?