For me, the really shitty LIFE IS:
1. Have sex out of a sense of duty, not out of passion.
2. Live with someone who morally destroys you every day and keeps you as a servant.
3. It is to endure insults from relatives and be afraid to fight back.
4. It is to get married according to calculation, to brag to your friends that life is good, and in the depths of your soul you feel like a hunted beast.
5. Bury your dreams and goals for the sake of public opinion.
6. Tolerate betrayal and betrayal just because you cannot provide for yourself.
7. Work in a well-paid job, but hate it with all my heart.
8. All my life to envy everyone and blame people from their lack of fulfillment.
9. Never try what you've dreamed of all your life.
10. Buying things for the admiration of other people, but not for yourself.
11. Look everywhere for the approval of relatives, friends and acquaintances.
12. Keep silent about what you don't like when everything is boiling in your soul.
13. Live in the role of a victim, but do nothing to go into the state of "fighter".

Search these points for yourself. If you haven't found it, then I congratulate you! Most people refuse to enjoy life because they are afraid that it will have to be paid for. But I will surprise you, HAPPINESS is absolutely free and unpunished !!!
Everything is in your head.
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM IN FIRST PLACE?
I wish you happiness!