i am here on this site as others have been too expensive for me & i don't have alot of money to just give away to a dating site where there are no gaurantees that i'll meet my soul-mate as that is what i am looking for as i was married for 7 years but with her for 15 years & alls she did was sleep around with every man she could & yet even with the opportunities i had to do the same to her i just realised that 2 wrongs don't make a right so i can honestly say i have been totally faithfull in every relationship i have ever been in & yet every woman i have been with has ended up breaking my heart by sleeping with men behind my back.... my heart can't take anymore hurt or pain as it has been broken too many times & i'm giving one lucky lady the chance to change my look on women because at the moment i have lost just about all faith in god that he will one-day bless me with my soul-mate as i don't want to be hurt anymore. please restore my faith also in women someone as i just want 'true love' can anyone help me with this request as i don't think i am asking for very much just to be happy & to feel real unconditional love from the girl of my dreams. somebody please wake me up from this nightmare & show me how to dream a beautiful dream that becomes a reality as i am in one big nightmare at the present time & i just want a real woman with a really big heart like my own & who is'nt affraid to be loved with all my heart & with every breath i take & with all that i am... please show me what real unconditional love feels like as i know how to give it but i have never been able to feel it... give me a love like no other has ever done coz then i'll know i've found my soul-mate & then & only then will i be truely happy & totally free.....i want to love & to be loved