Today I am sitting on the couch, not a day off, just listening to pink, what a woman, wild, crazy, gorgeous, and man does this woman have some pipes on her, any way back to why I am going to write this crazy ass blog.

I truly and sincerely am sorry for not being able to get to on site meetings with many people, if you understand or not, I guess it really does not matter, but at least it's honest, so please read, try to understand why I miss all the request to chat, and please remember I am humbly sorry for doing so......

I guess I have been here for about three months now, I don't really count, don't really have time to, nor do I care if I am here for 5 years if that is what it takes to find that one who truly understand me.....

So here is a blog to help those that really want to take the time, to do so, to see what's behind my eyes, where my heart has been, where it is, and where it is going, what my soul might have in common, in common with one lady, and only one lady.

I work 14 to 20 hours a day, 6 days a week, and some time's even 7 days a week, so when I get invited to chat, well most of the time I don't get a chance to do so, I do get on line to chat but unfortunately there is no set time that I get to do so, please forgive me for this, I am not trying to blow any one off, but as every one knows we need to make a living, me I just choose to work this way.

Please do not only read my profile to see what or whom I am about, its all in the music, and in the vidios to the music, if you truly want to see what I am all about, well.......... please listen..............

Back to what I am trying to say, I work many hours a week, I do get on line by computer to chat but not to often, but I try to do so, most of the time it is via phone, and all I can do is read from that little device, so please understand when I am on line it is because I am trying to read letters and it takes some time to do so, so please UNDERSTAND, be patient, calm, soft at heart, try to understand.

I will let all know this, when I meet you, that lady who makes my toe's curl, well then and only then will my days become shorter, only then will it be time to sweep you off your little feet, to adore you from the time the sun rises, till the sun sets, to always try to smell your perfume, to watch you shop and fuss because it, just does not look right on you, at least you think so, to make sure I will always be there to see your eyes as I give you that first rose, till the time I give you that last rose, when I write that first dorky poem to you, leave it sit by your tea or coffee cup in the morning with some wild flowers, as I am off to work, to text you and just say I hope your day is going good baby.

Look, I am very romantic, I have been a very lucky man in life, I have had the pleasure to love twice, to go nuts, be a dork, to love, to be romantic, and yes it ended so tragically, its so crushing, but you move on, you open, you love once again. You understand that you made a bad choice, or did I.......... ?

Please be there, soft at heart, I know your here, your some where, I will look till the end of my life to find you, and if i dont find you, I am very prepaired to understand that some where in my life I had my chance, and I missed it, and that was my choice, funny thing about choices, they all have have actions to them, good or bad, they were are choices that we/I choose.

Love is so unbelievable, so stunning, so amazing, to fill it thru your soul, to lay and have such soft and amazing pillow talk, to cry, to laugh till you piss your pants.

Well the wind is blowing, it's raining, Christmas is just around the corner, god I love Christmas, the thought of Santa clause, the magic, the miracles, the fairytale endings.

Randy

I truly hope they print this.