After 25 years of my life, I have never fallen in love. I am quite a beautiful girl with a good figure, not only men pay attention to me, but also women pay me compliments.
But I am very lonely. Not in the sense that I have no friends, they are just friends and two close, very close people who are like my soul mates, with them you can talk about everything and they will understand and will not judge. But in relationships I constantly have no luck. It's not that I meet bad men, no, they are wonderful people, good attentive people. But every time I start dating a man, after a short time in a relationship, I realize that it's not mine. Not my man. At first there is this so-called infatuation, but then it disappears and does not grow into true love. And I realize that I do not want to continue this relationship, I do not want to hurt the person and hurt him, when I see that I cannot reciprocate his feelings. And it is better to put an end to this relationship.
I realize it's about me and I feel like a cold bitch. The last man I had a semblance of a relationship with had pursued me for a long time, on the first date he asked me out after three of my rejections. But as it turned out, he is an amazing man with a deep inner world, very sensual and responsive. We started off so beautifully, we communicated as if we had known each other forever, and understood each other without words. We both value family values, love animals and have similar outlooks on life. We never fought. Not to say that our sex was awesome, we've had better, but his human qualities overcame all that.
But we're not together now, and we haven't been together for a long time. We split up very incomprehensibly, we just stopped writing and calling each other, although we meet periodically in restaurants, saying hello and smiling sweetly.
And then recently I saw him with a girl and wondered why I do not have anything echoes at the sight of him? At least a little bit of jealousy, but nothing. So I decided to write to this ispovedi.com site, so to speak, to speak out. How many people my age have never fallen in love, have not experienced this roof-busting feeling, about which so much is said and sung about it? Translated with www.DeepL.com/Translator (free version)