I had two friends when I was a kid. Now I think we were friends because we were neighbors. After high school I lost contact with my friends, I went to college in another city. One left, the other got married. With the second one we sometimes call each other, but her husband is very strict, so she doesn't talk to me for more than five or ten minutes.
At the institute, I couldn't make friends with anyone. I don't know, maybe it's just my personality. Calm, or maybe I was withdrawn. Could not find that circle of dialogue in which it would be comfortable to me, interesting. With any classmates I was not friends, was a simple communication "hello-bye.

My mother said that I have a malleable character and that I should choose my friends with caution, because there are different people. And my mother was right: those people who met in my fate, tried to just use me, not be friends. And I was hurt by it. Well, why fate has not brought me to real friends, loyal, who could come to help at any time! With whom I would have fun. Walked, would be engaged in common hobbies ... I do not know, but for me life without friends is not interesting. It makes me feel incomplete.
When I got married, I thought things would change. I'll find a new social circle. By the way, I was introduced to my husband by a relative. But it was not like that. My husband turned out not to be such a soul of company. On the contrary, he likes solitude. He likes reading, watching documentaries, likes silence. I thought I would make friends with my husband's friends, but he himself very rarely socializes with friends. Husband is a very good man. Loves children. Does everything for the home, for the family. But that is the nature of it.
We live in the suburbs. I myself at the moment in maternity leave. There are two children. My husband works. We live well. Everything seems to be fine, but the topic of friends does not give me peace. When my husband is at work, I sit at home with my children. The wives of my husband's friends get along well with each other, but I do not fit in with this company.
When I watch movies about girlfriends, I dream about such friends. And I think - why don't I have any friends! Why can't I find my social circle. Why am I always alone? My mom says, "Why do you need girlfriends when you have a husband and children? Spend time with them. And that I should not have no one closer than them. Maybe my mom is right, I don't know.
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