Have you ever had one of those times when you don't want anything? I'm not talking about a dress or a cake, but globally. You don't want to set goals, you don't want to plan, you don't want to achieve them? Though a dress and a cake do not want too much either.
I do not have any depressions, vitamin deficiency, etc. The psychologist says that what you think and talk about is not your true desires, but imposed.
It seems to me that I never had desires, serious and long term goals, as if as a child your desires were devalued. Before, when I was little, everything was decided for me. Although my parents demanded that I answer what I wanted, what circles I wanted to go to. This question was always difficult for me to answer, I didn't want anything long-term, I never dreamed of being a doctor or a ballerina. I did not want to fight for anything, to achieve anything. My parents pushed me here and there, but even in different circles I was engaged (seemingly at my request) for a short time and reluctantly. As soon as I understood how to achieve results, my interest vanished,

Nevertheless, I drew, played the piano, danced, did chasing, went hiking, but it was more for company or just to keep from sitting at home. Then I was interested, but quickly lost it. As if to spite me study was easy, foreign languages, I had good memory, good upbringing, I was well read, but all these were like some pieces sewn with a crooked needle. I was good at the institute, went to graduate school, but just for nothing to do. Then I just wanted money, and I left the scientific environment for commerce. And again I quickly oriented myself and began to earn decent money, but I refused to go for promotion, I lost interest, I have already understood how money is made.
Then I got married and had children. And it seemed to me then, that children would spur my interest in life. But even that was enough until their school, and then I lost interest in their studies, in their life, in their home. No, I did a lot, but through effort. And now it made it very hard to live. It was very hard from this emptiness. Everything became not interesting - husband, life, children, even grandchildren, I looked, played and did not want anymore, I went through all this already twice with children.
To say that I am tired of something in a serious way, so no. Tired of lack of interest, including to myself. I do not look after myself especially, never liked to spend time on it, a trip to the store for things too joy never added.
Searching for myself has not given anything - I have not found my favorite thing to do. I have no desires now, because I have achieved (or received) everything I wanted, and what else do I need? Everything came true long ago, and new desires do not appear, I just live with the flow (to sleep, to eat, to go to work and to sleep again, and so on). Everything is already done. Translated with www.DeepL.com/Translator (free version)