WHAT do I need to be happy now ??
Living here for a year, I had a lot of thoughts about leaving.And I was actually leaving.I went out, but I still came home, as if I was being pulled back by a magnet. And living in my house now, I just realize that I am alone.Lonely. I have no one to cook for because my daughter is studying abroad. I have no one to make plans with, discuss my plans with, I have no one to share my bed with, to share my love with. I feel like an empty decanter that has not been filled with love for a long time. I look at my colleagues, friends, they are happy, they have a family.and I only have a career.which doesn't make me happy. Sitting like this once.talking about it with my mom, I caught myself thinking.That now is the time to start changing something.Let it be difficult, let it not work out for me like this.as I want.But I'll try, I'll start acting. I've been looking for a rental home in America for a long time. Germany, Australia, just looking for a place to live anywhere.I was looking for something that would be to my liking, where I would go with a twinkle in my eyes. I was looking for a job, since it's not difficult with my education. And so, I found everything, everything is almost ready. New life, new people, new feelings.new journeys! I hope.that I can find my love. Maybe someone will like my story, and they will want to get to know me personally, meet me and have a cup of coffee.I don't mind.I'm open to dating.