You know, I've noticed that the women do not write blogs as often as we men. Why is that? Oh, well..the reason that I am writing this, tonight, is that I just want to know if I am the only one (man) who feels that I may not be "good enough" for these very beautiful women.
Of course, there are several reasons for this, I suppose. In my younger years I was actually desired by a lot of girls/women, but, as I have become older, my desirability seems to have faded away.
I do not go to bars, nor drink, and I do not smoke, never have. My curse has always been that I am quite shy. Women always had to make the first move towards me. And they certainly did just that. Ahh, but that was when I was young. Now I have grown older, and my "magical" attraction to women seems to have vanished. My life is filled with much loneliness.
Anyways, the girls/women, on this site..are sooo very pretty, and yet, so young. And they all are so anxious to connect with we men, that I am astonished! I find it hard to believe that such beautiful and young ladies would want anything to do with an older man.
I read each of the young women's letters, and simply cannot see how all these girls are "real". Oh..how I hope and pray that they are. But, I am not rich, I am but a common man..a man with strong morals, family values, works harder than most guys half my age, loves children, (and children love me), I do not have the nicest car on the street, and my home that I own is not a mansion on a hill, nor do I feel comfortable in a suit. Anyways, what I am finding it hard to believe is...that "any" of these beautiful and youthful women would want anything to do with a guy like me? Also, in this country...the United States...such a pretty young woman being seen with an older man such as I is..looked down upon. We men are thought of as "dirty old men"..only want one thing from the young woman, and that is..SEX. That weighs heavily on my mind. I cannot help to wonder if..these girls here on this site ever have those same thoughts about us older men? But hide those thoughts, simply because they are looking for a way to get out of their country, and hopefully to get a better way of life..? I just wish that I knew.
I simply want to be happy again. Want to be loved. Want to love. But I keep asking myself if...I am good enough..for women so beautiful, and young..? As for her age tho', I just want to be able to feel that "spark" between us, that everyone says that exists. Her age makes no difference, so should she be near my own, I would be happy. But..I just want to feel that "spark", and so I hold on, hoping that one day it will "hit" me and the girl/woman will also feel it as much as I do.
A lot of girls have contacted me on this site, but only two have actually made me "feel good inside", but..once again..I begin asking myself.."am I good enough" for her..?? I have made contact with both, but one has actually made me a "match", and so I have made her my favorite. But yet, still..I do not write her as much as I should, because of my feelings of not being good enough for her. She must think that I am ignoring her, but in reality, I am wanting her, feeling such desire for her, looking at her profile EVERY day! We "found" each other, on this site, just before Christmas. I do not want to ruin her life, by not being the person whom she feels I might be. But mostly my age. Guys..what are your thoughts? She says that she will share her personal information with me, if I should ask the site to give it to me, but should I..? I am desperately asking you guys for your advice..please help me.