I want to begin by saying right now: for those of you whom have never read my blogs, my writing style is more stream of consciousness, than a standard pattern of essay. I write like I am in a face to face conversation. It should be read and understood as such.

After penning a couple of blogs, that as of this, are yet to be approved for posting, another thought came to mind. Well, shall I say, I wish to posit another supposition.

Why are you here?
...and : Why am I here?
It SEEMS obvious- "DATING SITE". ....BUT, is it?
Everyone comes with their own beliefs. Hopes. Desires. Intended outcomes.
What is YOURS?
I am CONSTANTLY plied with the question: are you here for games or REAL relationship?

For ME it is an EASY answer. I look for someone to be my second half. Does that mean I am not whole? Of course not. It is a common analogy that in life, two halves make a whole. I am a whole, functioning adult male. I work, make a living, own a home, raise children (alone), and do things to entertain and indulge myself. Then why do I say this?

I was washing dishes this morning. I was happily humming a song that had popped into my head, and my mind went to the feeling of loneliness. Whether it was my song choice that had affected my thoughts, or just the silence of the morning activity, I began to realize, once again, that I felt that something was missing. I believe it was companionship. (Loneliness has raised its reviled head.) Now, this is something that happens to everyone from time to time (I assume), but on occasion, it hits with more fervor. Probably due to the approaching holidays, I would guess.
The song I was humming was the final epilogue to a grandiose submission of the rock group RUSH. The concerto is titled Hemispheres. It is a 36 minute interlude on the two parts of human conscience: heart and mind, looked at through the lens of left and right hemispheres of our brain. The last refrain:
"We can walk our road together
If our goals are all the same
We can run alone and free
If we pursue a different aim
Let the truth of love be lighted
Let the love of truth shine clear
Sensibility, armed with sense and liberty
With the heart and mind united in a single perfect sphere.."

This is what stirred my thoughts in the direction of loneliness.

I know for a fact, MANY women here have no realistic desire to ever meet the men they communicate with. I will not go into the inner working, but I am certain that the intermingling is nothing more than a source of monetary enrichment. My hope is that there are women here who want the same as I do- to find a compatible person to go through life.
I challenge that second group to listen to the aforementioned "Hemispheres" full composition in its entirety. It may be difficult, if you are not well versed in English. It will also help to source the lyrics to read along as you listen. The drummer for the group was a very well read poet, in his own right. His insights into the human condition are phenomenal. Should you dare to partake in this endeavor, I would gladly welcome your personal take on what you heard and read.
This may seem folly, but it actually is another step in showing you my "inner world" as is mentioned so often here. We in the States just say, MY PERSONALITY.

Ever wonder what makes me tick? Here is a prime example, for your enjoyment!