I just read a blog written by Lyudochka_85 and it struck me just how much her words pertained to my life. I sat and begrudged myself in sadness, despair and anger over a failed relationship. Blamed myself for being so careless, and aloof with my better judgement. I now realize nothing I could have done differently would have changed the inevitability of our failure and separation.
I now see my error and have come full circle within myself and realize I cannot live in regret of things uncontrollable. Fate, destiny or whatever you choose to call life's events are going to be as they will be. We cannot stop moving forward, cannot dwell in the "might have been", and we have to continue to strive for peace and serenity within ourselves.
Taking life just as it presents itself is all we can do. One day at a time and one step forward at a time. Sure the path may be long and slow going, but like all things we strive for, it will come to pass if we just have faith and believe.
The pain and sorrows of separation will not last. Like all hurts time will heal them. Is it easy to cope with? Not at all, but within each and everyone of us is a resolve to get past it. To find happiness once again. Like Lyudochka stated in her blog. It is within ourselves to create our own happiness. To not sit and mope or feel sorry for the wrongs and failures we go through. To understand that failures are a real part of our lives. Without those failures and setbacks we will not be able to find success or happiness in our lives. I now understand what my grandparents meant when they told me "the road to a happy life is littered with all the failures we leave behind."
I agree with her that every day is a victory for me. I awake with a new perspective on my life, more goals and dreams to pursue. I may not be at a point in my life I am happy with right now. For me, life seems to be at it's lowest point. Do I sit and dwell upon this and let it hold me down? No! I am motivated by a very bright future at my job, by an understanding friend on this site, and a belief in myself. All of which has given me the inspiration to succeed!
Thank you Lyudochka for giving me the insight that I am not alone is this experience and that all I endured was not in vain. I have learned that failure is not the end of the road, but a new beginning on a different path to success and happiness. Like you I have not lost my ability to love and trust and also realize I am a much better man for having the sad experiences I went through here.