all the things that i have told about myself and the things i have written to you my friends are true. my good friend Anna, the judge is a very astute lady. she thinks that i have a secret that i am not telling. you are correct anna. three years ago last november, i was hospitalized with congestive heart failure and other health problems resulting for the most part from the stress that my kids mom had put me into. i was very close to dying. somehow my body pulled through, but my mind still told me to just give up and let go. i was so weak that i could not even roll over in bed. after many weeks on life support and then months of physical therapy, i was loaned a computer to use. i fooled with it and one day i started talking to someone online. we shared our hopes and dreams and became good friends. she showed me that i could still find my remaining dreams and that hope was how to make them come true. jump ahead in time....i was just at the heart specialist. my heart has truly healed. any of you doctors know how unlikely that is. there is an enzyme in our bodies that can be measured, and is indicative of heart failure. the normal count is from 100 to 300 in a healthy person. my count was 950. today the lab report said 100. i owe this woman my life. i will wait for some more time to find out if what she told me is real or not. the part of my mind that says it is not is the part that keeps me making friends, because i really do want to remarrry and raise another family. if i have mislead anyone, i am truly sorry, but really enjoy talking to you lovely ladies. i kinda feel like a movie star to have so many wonderful friends. the photo is from my hospital stay. my neice give me a new hair style that day.