Here I am sitting at my computer and thinking about life, past, present and future. I guess that sounds kind of silly, but I do that sometimes. It happens when I see all the beautiful ladies that send me messages on this site. So I have decided to give my thoughts.

I begin when I was a child. As a child, I played baseball, football and basketball. Also had all the usual childhood diseases back then. Girls were not something I ever thought of. Was having too much fun being a child and becoming a Major League Baseball Player.

Then came the teen years and I started to notice girls. I wondered why they were different and did not like things I liked. My father was never one I could talk to about that, so I just had to use my imagination. I started to look at girlie magazines and had to hide them from mom. I actually did not have my first date until I was in Junior High School. It was so strange. I wonder in the ladies on this site had the same thing happen in their life. This is the point in my life when I realized that girls were very pretty and nice to be around. Still hung out with my friends and still played baseball, football, basketball and spent the summer at the local lake swimming and dancing. Since I was not a handsome boy, the girls were not attracted to me. Because of this, I can understand how the ladies here can feel at times. Very lonely and not feel wanted.

I have now moved into adulthood, working full time and dating sometimes. But there is one major problem. I am not comfortable around the ladies. Have a hard time communicating and I just feel out of place many times. I did not date many ladies and it is something I regret many times. I also started to think about my future. I wanted to be a millionaire and live comfortably, but that never happened. Just lived pay check to pay check.

I am now in my late 20's and I meet a lady that I find very intriguing and interesting. We dated, got to know each other and eventually got married. I will not say that it was bad, but the marriage was pretty good until we had our child. I can tell you more about that later.

I am not 70 year old man who has realized that I will never be a millionaire, probably never make love to a lady again and just take life one day at a time. I do not know if the ladies here feel the same way sometimes, but I guess they do.

The only other thing I wonder is why the ladies in their late teens to late twenties and even early 30's would be interested in this 70 year old man. Maybe someone on this site can tell me and make me understand.

I hope all on here have a great weekend and summer.