They say strong women are a gift from fate.
They can lift their own spirits.
They carry their own bags.
They earn their own money, make their own decisions, cope with their own troubles.
Sometimes they even buy their own flowers.
And then they throw them away.

I'm not complaining. I really don't. I know how to live. I'm good at it.
But one day I caught myself thinking:
I'm tired😢

Tired of being the one who is always "okay".
Who smiles even when things are tight inside.
Who says "thank you, I can handle it" when you want to say "hug me".
Who supports others but is unsupported.

I'm tired of hearing "you're so strong."
You know, it sounds like a judgment.
Like I don't have the right to be fragile.
I don't have the right to just sit down and say, "I'm scared."

Sometimes I don't want to be a heroine, or an iron lady, or "the one who never cries."
I just want to be a woman.
Who can hide in a man's arms and sigh, "It's okay now."
Without fear that it's a weakness.
Without fear of being judged for it.

I don't need someone to solve all my problems for me.
But I do want to know that the one I love is there for me.
That I can rely on him.
That when I don't have the strength, he'll hold my hand.
Silently. Safely. Without pathos.

I won't stop being strong.
But sometimes... just sometimes...
Let me be weak.

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