Sometimes it seems to me that I get tired not from doing things, but from the fact that I need to be “in shape” all the time. Smile, be fast, strong, interesting. As if I am not a person, but a program that should not fail. But today was a day without filters.

I woke up and realized: I don’t want anything. No calls, no tasks, not even music. I wanted to be in silence. Just be myself. Without labels, without images. Not perfect. Not “good”. Just real.

I didn’t wear a dress, didn’t do my hair, didn’t even drink coffee. I allowed myself to wander around the apartment barefoot, read diaries and look at the ceiling. And you know, it was one of the most honest days of my life.

At such moments, it’s as if you take off everything unnecessary. And in the depths of this silence, simple desires suddenly emerge: to hug longer, to laugh out loud, to kiss for no reason, to live without haste.

This is not depression. This is a reboot. We all sometimes need to disappear from other people’s eyes and look into our own. Not to understand “what’s next,” but to feel: I am.

Tomorrow, maybe, I will shine again. And today I just live. Quietly. Deeply. With love for myself.