From morning to evening I repeat the same actions without thinking - get up, wash, breakfast, work, evening, sleep. And so day after day, week after week. Sometimes I catch myself thinking: "What do I even want? What do I really want?" But the answer seems to dissolve in routine, like instant coffee that does not give real taste. ☕️

Living from habit is convenient. You do not need to think, you do not need to choose, you do not need to risk. You just follow what you have long mastered, what seems right and familiar. But is this life? Or rather survival? Sometimes I am afraid to admit to myself that desires seem to have fallen asleep somewhere deep inside, and I just pretend that they are alive.

And what does it mean to live from desire? For me, it’s not necessarily some grand dreams or goals. It’s the feeling when you wake up every morning with a spark inside, with a small flame of hope that today will be something special, even if it’s just a cup of delicious coffee ☕️ or a ray of sunshine on the window. It’s when you listen to your heart, not the voice of habit.

I often think that it’s easier to listen to yourself when you’re alone. There’s no one to ask questions, no one to ask, no one to impose or change anything. This is the time when you can be honest with yourself, even if the truth is sometimes painful. I admit that sometimes I live out of habit, so as not to feel lonely, so as not to think too much. Habit is like a life preserver that keeps me afloat when the sea of life starts to storm.

But sometimes I notice moments when desire awakens — when I suddenly want to do something differently, when a thrill and slight anxiety appear inside at the same time. This is a sign that I am alive, that I have not yet turned into a robot with a programmed schedule. I try to catch these moments, to keep them like precious stones. 💎

Living from desire means being yourself, even if it is sometimes scary and uncomfortable. Being ready to make mistakes and try new things, even if habit screams: “Careful! You can’t do this!” Being honest with yourself and not hiding your feelings behind the mask of “everything is fine”. After all, only through desires can we truly open up and understand who we are.

Now, when I sit alone and think about it, I understand that I live both. Habit helps me maintain balance and safety, and desire inspires me to move forward, even if the steps are not always confident. And this is normal. Perhaps this is how it should be - to find your way between comfort and passion, between peace and movement.

And how do you live? From desire or from habit? Maybe you also have moments when it seems that you want something more than just living through the days? Sometimes it is enough to stop and ask yourself this question to hear the answer inside.

Let there be more desire in our lives - small and big, bright and bold. Let habit serve us, and not control us. And let us always not be afraid to look deep inside ourselves and admit what we really want. 💫

Masha