It doesn't matter how spectacular she is, how slender her legs are, and how well she can cook. This is not about that at all. It happens that you are next to her - and you just WANT TO. Live, joke, work, move, be better. Not because she makes you. But simply because some very right current comes from her ⚡️

And sometimes it's the other way around. It seems like she does nothing bad. Speaks softly. Smiles. Cares. And inside you - it's empty. Just lethargy, as if you were riding the subway all night without a seat.

I tried to understand what this difference is. Where is it, this invisible line between "inspiring" and "tiring"? Maybe it's like with fragrances: the same smell is a thrill for one person, but a headache for another.

Or maybe it all comes down to how we feel about ourselves with that person. With someone, I become talkative, easy-going, my eyes sparkle. But with someone, I don't like myself. I get tense, tired, I want to distance myself. And not because the person is bad. It's just not my thing. Or I don't "turn on" for him.

And here's what's funny - I'm also tiring for someone. It's unpleasant to admit, but it's a fact. There were probably men next to whom I was like a heavy coat on a hot day 😅 Although I wanted to be inspiring. The one after whom you don't want to sleep, but want to live.

But you can't be a battery for everyone. This is also not about effort. Not about "be interesting", not about "try". Sometimes you just ENTER his life like the sun in the window. And sometimes - like dust.

And I also think: is it possible to learn to be that one - light, sincere, inspiring? Or is it born only when you yourself are doing well? When you do not prove, do not cling, do not press. Just live.

If only someone would honestly say how they feel this line. Men probably notice: on the one hand - you want to move mountains, on the other - only the couch and silence 🛋

You want to be first. But not in the sense of competing. But just... to be the light. Without effort. Without tension. Just be yourself, but the one from which you feel warm inside ☀️

And if suddenly I am not like that... then maybe I am just not with the right person yet. Or not with the right thoughts.

Have you felt such a difference? 🖤

Mari