I don't need a hero. At all.

I want a person who knows how to STAY.

Stay when I'm uninteresting. When my head is a solid gray screen, and I sit in sweatpants, eat pasta with ketchup and don't even turn on the music. When I don't smile, don't shine, don't provoke conversations. Just sit and live.

I value more and more those who are not afraid of a "pause". Who do not leave in search of a new spark. Who do not look at silence as the end, but simply accept it as part of the path.

I don't want to play anymore. I don't want to be comfortable, easy, interesting every day. We all can't be a festival around the clock. There are days when my stomach hurts and I look like a boiled potato. There are evenings when I just want to lie next to you, without explaining anything, and for it to be ok.

Where are those who don’t demand dancing for attention? Who doesn’t run away if things aren’t as fun as they were on the first day? Who knows how to not only come, but also stay?

We all know how to show up. Beautifully. Impressively. Unexpectedly.
And you just try not to leave. Not to be afraid of silence, not to start getting bored with normality. Ordinariness is not an enemy, it’s just... real.

Love is not when someone conquers you at dawn and keeps you in good shape with eternal adrenaline. Love is when you can survive boredom. And not be afraid of it.

I don’t need to be saved. You don’t need to carry me in your arms. I’m not a princess who needs to be rescued from the castle.
I just want to know that if I'm not in the mood, you won't be scared. You won't consider it a flaw.

That you'll just stay. Nearby.

Yes, I'm not sunny all the time. I can be tired, closed, prickly. Sometimes I just feel bad, and there's no reason for it. And I don't want people to expect a smile from me at that moment. Or ask: "Are you offended by something?"

I just want to know: when I'm not shining, they still won't stop seeing me.

And this is probably the most important thing.

🌧☕️🧦

Ira