Not on purpose, it just happens. As if if I'm not at the wheel, then everything will fall apart. As a result, I spin my thoughts, come up with scenarios and spend a lot of energy on something that can't be changed at all. Do you feel this?

I wonder why we want to hold everything in our hands so much? We seem to be adults, but without it, chaos begins. But here's what I noticed — when you let go, it's as if it's immediately easier inside. It's even strange — it seems like you're losing control, but in the end you find freedom.

Have you ever allowed yourself to just go with the flow? Without a plan, without a schedule, without trying to look into tomorrow and decide how it will be there? I don't always succeed, but when I do, I feel like I'm truly living.

Maybe we demand too much of ourselves? We want to foresee everything, control everything, but as a result, we make things worse for ourselves. You know, it's like a game with invisible rules, where it's impossible to win because the rules are constantly changing.

And yes, sometimes you just want to drop all these scenarios and feel - right now I am, and nothing else is needed. To be stupid, imperfect, spontaneous, laugh for no reason, do stupid things and not worry. Don't you think that this is true happiness?

That's why I decided to write to you precisely because I'm curious - how do you cope with this? With the desire to control or, on the contrary, to let go? Does it ever happen that you let go? Write, I'd like to know your point of view. :)

Mari