It's strange - on the outside you can look like everything is under control, but inside sometimes you just want someone to be there. Not for big words and explanations, but so that there is no feeling that you are completely alone in this world. 💭
It seems to me that loneliness is not only about the absence of someone nearby, it is also about meeting yourself. And sometimes this meeting is the most frightening. 😔 As if you suddenly find yourself alone with yourself and all your fears and doubts that you managed to suppress before.
I wonder - why is that? Why are we still afraid of silence and emptiness at different moments when there is so much noise around us? Maybe we are just afraid that we will not find anything good in this silence? Or are we afraid to admit that sometimes we are just scared?
And here is another thing: this fear probably unites us all much more strongly than we think. We all want to feel needed, we want someone to believe in us, even if we ourselves do not always believe it. And this fear of loneliness - it sometimes makes us do strange things, hold on to something and someone, even if you already understand that this is not quite what you need.
But what to do when loneliness becomes a habit? When it stops seeming scary and turns into some part of you with which you have already learned to coexist? Then you no longer know - is it protection or captivity? 🤷♀️
Sometimes I think that this is the point — not to get rid of fear, but to learn to live with it so that it does not prevent you from moving forward. But honestly, it is not that easy. Especially when suddenly you feel like you are alone in this big world. 🌍
Have you ever had this? What do you think about loneliness and the fear of it? I think this is a topic that needs to be talked about more, because sometimes we all feel not as strong as we would like to show.
Ira