Sometimes I just want someone alive next to me. Someone with whom I don't have to play "strong", "funny", "interesting". I can be different anyway. But without tension - that's rare.
So often it all starts with the desire to please. You say phrases that you supposedly need to say. You pause, smile at the right time, even choose a photo with the right angle. And then suddenly you catch yourself thinking that you're tired.
You just want to sit next to them. Be silent. And for this silence to be alive, warm. So that you don't have to prove that you're good, smart, beautiful. So that no one judges, compares, or ticks off boxes in your head.
I don't want to be "someone's goal", "someone's success". I want to be a person. Just to be. And to have another person next to me. Without filters. Without instructions. Without playing.
You may not wear a jacket, not like classics, not be 100% confident in yourself. I don't always know what I want either. But I don't want to play anymore. Not in the ideal, not in the comfortable, not in the unapproachable.
I want something simple: to watch a movie together and not discuss who is right. To go to the store, forget to buy bread and laugh about it. To sit silently, buried in our phones, and feel that this is also about intimacy.
I'm not waiting for a prince. I just want to be next to someone who is not afraid to be themselves. Who does not pretend that everything is under control. Who is not afraid to show fatigue, anger, weakness. Who knows how to not only take, but also be.
It's hard to explain, but I think you will understand. If you are the one who also wants to do without the game - you and I are already similar 😉ðŸ’
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