I watch and feel like I'm warming up. It can be quiet and chilly in my room, an ordinary evening, but if someone on the screen strokes someone's cheek, holds them by the waist, and then just stays silent next to them, I feel a little better. I'm not jealous. I'm not envious. I just seem to remember that this exists 💭

This feeling when someone is near not because they need to, but because they want to. Not according to plan, not by calculation, not out of habit. But simply because they are drawn to. Because it's you. It's powerful.

I don't play at suffering. I'm not sad in the face. Everything is fine with me. I can do everything myself, I can be independent, I can be smart, strong, cool. But sometimes I just want to be skin. Without words. Without tasks. Just lie down under someone's shoulder and breathe together. Without explanations.

Yes, in my head there lives a strict young lady who says: "Pull yourself together, this is all nonsense." And in my body - the one who reaches for warmth. I do not always choose the second. But she does not go anywhere 🤍

I do not believe in fairy tales. But I believe in moments. They are fleeting, but they catch. And a movie with truly intimate scenes is like a window into a world where you can still feel. Not be a stranger to this.

I do not know when I will see this not on the screen. And will I see it. But I am pleased to remember that all this is not fiction. That the warmth between people is not a fantasy. That someone out there might also be turning on a movie right now and feeling the same as me 🕯

Do you do that sometimes too? Or are these just my little rituals?

Masha