It's funny, but I noticed a long time ago: people around are so afraid of silence that they run from it to anyone. So that they are "not alone".

I look at couples in a cafe 💑. They are sitting at a table, each looking at their phone, and I catch myself thinking strangely: are they together because they love each other or because they just don't want to be alone? Sometimes it seems that many relationships are not about love, but about fear. Fear of coming home and hearing the refrigerator hum louder than your heart. Fear of admitting that it is not always interesting to be with yourself.

I am also a person, and I have such evenings when I just want someone to hug me 🤗. It doesn't matter that we are different, that we have nothing in common, just someone is there. And I catch myself thinking that this is a dangerous thought. Because at that moment you are ready to agree to something "almost" just to fill the void. And then years of habit grow out of that "almost".

But to be honest, I love my freedom. I love that I can lie on the floor and look at the ceiling 🌌. I can turn on music that only I like and dance as if I were in a video where no one judges. I love that moment when I understand: being alone is not always about sadness. Sometimes it is about strength. About the fact that I know how to be with myself.

I believe that true love does not come from fear. It comes when you do not run away from silence. When you do not look for someone just for the sake of "not being alone", but want to be with him. And then the coffee in the morning becomes even tastier, because something real is added to its warmth ❤️.

And for now I drink it alone and smile at my reflection in the window. Because that is also happiness 🙂

Val