And in my head there were constantly options, doubts, questions. This is the feeling when you are sitting and it is as if at a crossroads: all roads are open, but choosing one is like the most difficult task in the world.

I always thought that it is because we women think more about the details, about how everything can turn out. Maybe it is an instinct or a habit, but I often stop, trying to understand what will be better. Even when I just want to act, some part of me still postpones the decision. Sometimes it is because of the fear of making a mistake, sometimes - because I want to think everything through as carefully as possible.

In the sport that I love, there are clear rules and tasks. Training - and you either do it or not. There is no room for doubt, otherwise it simply will not work. But in life, outside the gym, everything is more complicated. There is no one right approach, and it's infuriating, honestly. When you see someone making decisions quickly and moving forward, the thought comes to mind - "How come I can't do the same?"

Maybe this is our strength - that we can see several options at once. We weigh, analyze, think about how our actions will affect not only us, but also those around us. Yes, this slows down the process, but it allows us to make a choice with greater understanding. And yet, sometimes you want at least some of that male confidence that allows you not to waste time.

I won't say that I envy, but sometimes I want everything to be a little easier. Not for everything to be decided for me, but for an inner voice to say - "Come on, act, this is right." But, apparently, this is not about me anymore. About me - it is when I doubt, worry, and then still move forward, albeit with a small delay.

And what about loneliness? It seems to give you time to think, but it also pushes you to make a decision - after all, no one else will say "do it" for you. It's both freedom and responsibility. And, perhaps, that's the whole point - to learn to trust yourself, even if it's slow and not always easy.

Here I am, sitting and thinking, maybe I should stop waiting for the perfect moment and just start doing it? Even if not as quickly as I would like. The main thing is to go. What do you think, is it better to do it quickly and with risk or slowly but thoughtfully? 😉

Mari