And then I wonder why I'm tired. Why, every evening, I just want to disappear into the darkness, so no one can see me trembling with exhaustion.

I think it's also fear—fear of being authentic. Fear that if I show weakness, boredom, fear, or doubt, I'll be rejected. And if I don't show it, I lose myself.

Sometimes I just want to scream senselessly, laugh without reason, and cry without explaining why. 🎈
But we try to keep everything under control, as if emotions were a commodity that can't be thrown away for free.

And I ask myself: why are we afraid to just be human, if being human isn't a mistake? 🤔
Maybe someday I'll stop hiding my emotions and just flow. No masks, no filters, no rules.

Do you allow yourself to be completely authentic, or do you also play the role of "calm and strong"? 🌊