I respect authority. I listen to the people who came before me. But I think I've been so focused on doing what's expected that I haven't asked myself: What do I actually want?

The quiet of the land is peaceful, but it can also be isolating. I've been so content with my small world that I haven't wondered what else exists beyond it. And I realize that might not be wise. Not because where I am is wrong, but because I don't actually know if I'm choosing it or just accepting it. 🌅

My faith teaches me that God gave me a mind and a heart for a reason. Not just to accept what comes, but to discern what's right for me. To be active in my own life, not passive.

I think the best thing for me right now is to explore a little. To read more widely. To ask questions that make me uncomfortable. To meet people different from me and understand how they see the world. Not to reject my roots, but to make sure that when I choose them, I'm really choosing them. 🕊️

Does staying in one place mean I have to stay the same person forever?

The countryside will still be here. But I need to become more fully myself first.