People often think that beautiful women find love easily.
Especially if they have beauty contests, titles, stage, attention behind them.
It seems that such women always have a choice, a queue of suitors and no problems in their personal lives.
I used to think so too.
And then I realized that this is a myth.
Yes, I am often called beautiful.
Yes, I am used to looks and compliments.
But at the same time, I am also used to loneliness.
They are more afraid of me than they seem
Most men do not even take the first step.
They think that I am unattainable, that I already have someone, that they “have nothing to catch”.
I was told this directly. And more than once.
As a result - a lot of silence.
And very few real conversations.
I am often seen not as a person
Sometimes it seems that they want to be with me not because of me,
but because of the image that I personify.
A beautiful picture. Status. Fantasy.
But I am not an image.
I am alive. I can get tired, doubt, be vulnerable.
And it is important to me that someone wants to get to know me, not their idea of ​​me.
They expect perfection from me
They say that I should always be smiling, light, strong, without problems.
As if beauty deprives me of the right to be weak.
But I can also have a bad day.
I also want to be hugged, not admired from afar.
I am often devalued
Sometimes it seems that all my achievements are explained only by appearance.
As if everything in life came to me "just like that".
It hurts.
Because behind every crown is work, criticism, doubts, fears, tears.
And behind every strong woman is a desire to be seen more deeply.
I am strong - but this does not mean that I do not need love
I have learned to be independent.
To make decisions. To live without support.
But this does not mean that I do not want to be with someone.
I am not looking for someone who will "save" me.
I am looking for someone with whom I can be myself.
Compliments are nice. Sincerity is more important
I hear "you are incredible" often.
But I rarely hear:
"I want to understand you"
"I wonder what you really are"
And this is where love begins.
Why am I here
I am not here to collect compliments.
And not to prove anything to anyone.
I am here because even beautiful women can be lonely.
And even strong women want intimacy.
If you're reading this and thinking,
"She's too much for me,"you're probably wrong.
Sometimes just writing is enough.
Not ideal.But honestly.