I am alone in the room that i sleep in here on the small family farm. I read lots of nice letters from you ladies and always wish that i could share my life with each one of you. I often read about concerns about your wonderful children. Kids are the reason that im alive and well. My own daughter got me to the hospital once when i was in danger of dying. One of my sons moved into this house where he was raised and is now raising his family here. I have become the built in baby sitter. I enjoy a room full of grandchildren every day. My bed is an old fasioned one with steel rails, steel box spring and i put 2 mattresses and a down comforter on it. It is the most comfortable bed in the house. It also doubles as a trampoline. Lol. We live a very old fashioned life here by choice rather by necessity. I have a bunch of credits for letters and i hope to write to my current friends and make lots of new friends with the intro letters that have accumulated. Someone should tell me how to choose a wife from so many perfect ladies and not hurt anyones feelings. I have considered an internet "death"but am a very poor liar. Plz help me learn what to do because every one of my friends is special and i really did get on this site because i have never shared the kind of love that i want to have with any of my old girlfriends or...and i hate to admit this...with any of my ex wives...im a bit ashamed about the number of failed relationships i have had. I am not and never have been the kind of man who dates a lady as if it is a conquest. To understand me a little bit better, listen to the song by a group called foreigner. The song is "i wanna know what love is"