Rarely do I comment on a man's blog but yours is very insightful and well written, as from the heart. Believe me, we are much the same, in many ways. Have no doubt, you're a good man! Please follow that chapter of Corinthians to the conclusion. " It's like this; when I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child does. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. Now we see things imperfectly, as in a poor mirror, but then we will see things with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God knows me now! There are three things that will endure__ faith, hope and Love__ and the Greatest of these is Love." So, Rich, just endure and try and you will be fine. I have faith in us all, who don't give up! In other words,...be Love! Ray.