Today i sat down and started reading all the emails i got from all the beautiful ladies on here. Some of them sexy, some romantic, some intellectual, some were even scary. I got thru them all and thought to myself, how am i going to pick just one out of so many that are interested in me? I realize that if i am going to find my bride on here i am going to have to weed thru the mess of mails, look at each ones profile, determine if she is close to what im looking for, then put them in the blackbook or delete piles. After i narrow my search im going to have to invite them for video chat. Then im going to have to narrow my search down even more until i find that perfect woman for me. I am looking for my soulmate, but i have to find myself before i can find her.

Now my reality is this. I am still technically married, I have 4 kids, I have a job that keeps me away from them but i still make time to see them. i am seperated from my wife but she's still my wife until i can get a divorce. I realized that i cant start a relationship online or in person while im still married, I don't want to get someones hopes up that i will be available for them to come here to meet me and be with me when im still trying to find myself again. I also don't want someone with me as i get my current situation taken care of. I also dont want to lead anyone on.

I guess what im trying to say is im confused right now. On the one hand i am clearly unhappy in my marriage and i do want out, on the other i have all these women pursuing me online. Reality vs Romantic Fantasy.

What do you all think? Should i just continue to search for my soul mate on here, bring her to live with me and then sort out my marrital affairs later? or should i take care of my real life affairs now and put off my search until im 100% available?