My life is incredibly complex at this time, it is the reason I have not chosen to write to any1. I am absolutely sincere in my search here, but an unexpected event has put my love search a little further back in my priorities. For reasons being, I havevn’t spoken to my father in many, many years. Very recently I found out that he has cancer - amongst other dreadful illnesses. So I have been to see him, and spent quite a lot of time with him. It is foolish to hold on to resentment, and I regret my decision to remove him from my life all those years ago (regret, but feel I was justified to do so...). Now I wish to become much closer to him, understand him – before it is too late. When I was small, my father was a giant. A strong man in physical appearance and he had what we call ‘presence’ – you can’t help but notice him. To see him now, so frail... he is not the man I remember. But with age, and a new reflection on life (due to the illness I imagine) – he has become soft, warm, caring. I enjoy his company much. And his annoying Parrot! Damn thing doesn’t shut up, hehe! I think that bird has a larger vocabulary than I do!!

Anyway. There are, of course, girls I am interested in. Some of you write me letters I enjoy VERY much – you know who you are – but please... I do not know what to say. Can you understand my father needs me right now? I ask no1 to wait for me. It is why I have not encouraged any1... I simply am having to cope with a lot at this time. To every1 on this site, I wish u well, and I hope that love will find u all.

Peace to all x