I have been on websites such as this for such a very long time. I remember the very first time I joined such a site many years ago. It was about four years after my Ex- divorced me. My divorce was among the very worst experiences of my life, after losing my Mom and then later my Dad. But when my parents passed, I knew such time was close for them, and although, I was regretting the thought of losing them, it was expected. When my Ex- divorced me, it was very sudden and very unexpected. It left me completely empty, feeling like less than a man. The pain was the worst, I have ever felt. I was lost and did not want to live. My children who I cherish, kept me going, and still do at times. But my heart was closed tight like a locked vault. After four years of trying to recover on my own, one day while browsing the internet, I found a site such as this. I was absolutely amazed at the beauty of the women. But I rarely got any attention back then. Talking with women half a world away on the internet, was NOT a strength of mine. I have always been somewhat shy when it comes to women, and I guess it showed even on the internet. But as time went by, I learned that to complete my profile was important. So I sat down and wrote my profile with honesty and from my heart. I talked about things that could easily be verified if a woman here, ever met with me. Then I learned to communicate a little more openly online with some of the most beautiful women I have ever seen in my life. But that was a long time ago. Over the years I allowed myself to open my heart a few times. The result, was not to my benefit. It seems even now, as I sit here writing this, I am thinking about someone I met here, who for some reason, I am no longer able to contact. I see her profile but can not write to her. My mind takes me through many reasons WHY and what possibly may have happened. Maybe she blocked me, I do not know. If so, WHY? Then I think about this evil pandemic affecting the world and hope she did not get sick. I think of so many other possibilities that may be the reason. I hope and pray, that she is OK. If she is reading this, I hope she will write to me soon. I miss YOU Pretty Lady...