some time ago i joined this site for the sole purpose of finding a wife and settling down ... i didnt expect the response i got from all the ladies on the site but i also found myself at loggerheads to whom to choose , i did decide on one lady who i am still very much in love with , shes funny , charming , loyal and understanding she knows who she is cause she wrote me touching meaningful letters and they really was full of love and emotion ..i wondered what life would be like settled with such a woman and as the letters came i got to learn much of the side of the woman no one knows but myself ..i felt privilaged and honoured to know her life ...her family and the ploblems she faced day to day .. she trusted me with the insight into her world ..she opened the door and kinda pushed me in ..but althrough i couldnt reply by conventional means i did have assistance and i am still i hope in communication ..i do miss her badly ..she pulled my world down to the core and made me love her ...yes i am meaning you ..you know who you are ....

But i cant be that lucky can i ? ...yes i told her my life , my things i couldnt ever tell anyone without freaking them out .. but everything on my life was and is very true i wouldnt lie to anyone upon who i am ...even down to special abilities i have learned to accept , though its been very hard sometimes to have accepted them but i have them like it or not i am stuck with them ,even said my insights into my life to have her understand me more but maybe thats why she hasnt contacted a letter , she does buzz me on chat but i have no way of reaching her for the time being ... but i never ignore anyone , i never ignore letters specially written because of the person i am i maybe in love with one woman but its rude to ignore others i am not ignorant and i choose never to be

i blog in way of the only communication possible but its very hard not knowing if anyone reads them apart from the powers that be ...
but with valentines day now only a few days away i am going to be alone this day as i have been many years previously ..i will be sad on the day where i will see many lovers exchanging gifts and showing proper love ..i will miss that for another year so a sad cloud like for many will be here too but i do pray it will never be like that for next year and beyond ...true i want a happy life and a loving cherished wife and family ..but like everything and everyone here time is a good thing to have for those who will and can wait for the future ..believe me i am trying to ...

so if you are alone this valentines day ..at least let me wish you a good and pleasant day ..you will all deserve the best of happiness and love and like me it maybe far away ...but never too far if you can see what your chosen man has written to you or chosen woman ....

happy valentines from the old fashioned raised man on site