I'm Robinson Crusoe only without Friday, I don't even have him, I'm so lonely. I feel abandoned, lost. And I realize that these are just girly complaints, but I can’t do anything about it.
I came to my relatives, whom I see very rarely. And I have already got used to this distance, it has become so familiar that when it disappears, it becomes a little uncomfortable and unusual. And here I am, it would seem, you just open the door and see your relatives, you can come up and hug them, but it doesn’t work out, because work, business, and they simply don’t care about you. And when they have a free minute, they are no longer able to spend time with you, because work is exhausting, both mentally and physically. It turns out I don't get anywhere. Sometimes it seems to me that I need to become a part of their work or their client in order to be able to be with them for at least half an hour, just talk live and without a computer or phone, just see the reaction, emotions without the "freezing" of the Internet and pixels. But, despite the fact that my picture quality is excellent now, the quality of communication is just at a minimum.
Everyone has their own worries and problems, but sometimes they should be forgotten or just put in a small box for a while, locked with a key and put on a shelf.
I miss this communication, I miss my loved ones. They said that as soon as I arrive, we will always be together, I was even frightened by such a loud statement, but now I understand that our expectations do not always coincide with reality. To be honest, this is bad. Most likely, I just need to finally accept the fact that it will never be otherwise, and appreciate even a couple of seconds spent together.