And you seem to be accustomed to this way of life, when everything is stereotyped and obvious, but... This monotony is somehow alien to you and even some terrible fear overcomes at the thought that your whole short life will pass like this. But you hide this fear inside yourself, fearing that it will be noticed by others, fearing that you will be revealed. You forget that people are not able to think so deeply and "reveal" the entities that you so feverishly hide inside they are stupid and simple.. After all, admit to yourself that you crave variety, you want bright colors not gray and dull everyday life.
You've grown.
You just grew up to the moment when the thinker begins to think even deeper, when the thirsty yearns for more, when the interested one strives for new knowledge. You started to feel. Feel the space around and yourself in this space; Whether it absorbs or pushes out is unclear... But you are trying to get to the bottom of clarity, neglecting the everyday life! And rightly so, you chose the right path. You cannot hide fear, you must act and overcome it, yourself and prejudices. We must live without fear.
Once again you return home, and let it be along the same road, with the same people. The main thing is that inside you are not what you seem to be...