Always do what you think is necessary and right for yourself. Your conscience is clear and so is your mind. Your life is your life and no one will live it for you. You deserve the best, and you yourself know about it.
Don't like the person? Turn around and leave. There is no need to explain anything to anyone. Do not make excuses to someone.
Know how to refuse people if you do not want or cannot do what they ask you to do. Know how to refuse if it contradicts your principles.
Have your opinion, show your will. Do not be afraid that someone will judge you or reproach you. This is their opinion.
Step over and move on.
Say "no" to all those who try to use you, to those who try to break and change you ... Say "no" to those with whom you feel unhappy, who deprives you of warmth and a place under the Sun.
You were born this way, you are unique. You are so alone, with your cockroaches, with your pros and cons.
And if you are not comfortable, then change your life ..