You get up and do not argue with yourself. The toothpaste does not fall into the sink, the coffee turns out as it should - not a drop bitter, not a gram extra. Your hair does not explode in all directions. You do not look for your keys all over the apartment. You are not in a hurry. You are not angry. Everything is on its own. Everything is on time. People do not irritate you. On the contrary - everyone is somehow nice. Someone gave way, someone smiled in the elevator, the driver at the crosswalk slowed down without a displeased look. And you are not surprised. Because you have warm weather inside ☀️

I love days like these. They are silent. There is no struggle, no expectations, no rush. It’s like I’m floating inside myself. Without stress. Without anxiety. I just am, and that’s enough. No need to explain anything to anyone. No need to pretend that I’m okay when I’m not okay. No need to hide. Everything is fine as it is.

Sometimes I catch the thought at such moments that I miss someone next to me. Not intrusively. Not to the point of pain. But simply humanly. I want to turn around and say: “Listen, do you feel this? It’s like he’s been winking at me all day” 😉 I want someone to look and understand without interrupting. Just be there and do nothing. Nothing at all. Just be.

But at the same time, I don’t suffer from loneliness. I really feel good with myself. I don’t run away from silence, I don’t lie to myself. I just notice this slight shade of "something is missing", and it doesn't spoil the mood. It makes the day a little more voluminous. As if life makes it clear - this is it, this is how it is when you don't drag yourself, but just live. Just LIVE ❤️

I wonder how many people notice such days. Or are we too busy to stop and feel? I decided not to pass by. I just sat down and wrote before it all fell apart inside. Because tomorrow will be another day. Maybe with traffic jams, rain, endless things to do and nerves. But today was like this. Mine. Clean. Warm. Soundless. And very, very real 🫶

Do you ever have days like this when you don't need to be better, stronger, faster? When you just exist - and for some reason that's suddenly enough?.. 💬

Natasha