It seems like it should be natural, but for some reason it always surprises everyone around you. Probably because they are used to seeing me differently - with thoughts, doubts, with these endless "what if...", with uncertainty.

Happiness is not something I show off on purpose, like a new accessory. It is not something that can be planned in advance or built step by step. It just happens. And at that moment I realize that the world around me seems to be changing, but only I see it. No one else notices it or wants to notice it, and it's funny 😏.

It seems like everyone expects me to be difficult, vulnerable or lost. Well, or at least not too easy, not too simple. Because if I'm suddenly happy, then some of them feel unusual about it - as if I've violated someone's expectations. Maybe even someone's plans.

On the other hand, when I'm happy, I seem to become a little different - more open and honest with myself. Fewer masks, less "how it should be", more of what's real. And this is probably my challenge to the world - to be myself, even if it seems strange or unusual to others.

And you know what's the strangest thing? Sometimes I'm afraid that this happiness is temporary, that it can slip away like sand through your fingers. And then I'm in no hurry to show it to everyone. Too fast happiness can scare you. Or cause questions that you don't want to answer.

I wonder why people are so used to expecting something "imperfect" from me? Why does happiness seem almost suspicious to them? Maybe there is some truth in this about the people around me. That they are afraid of change, even if these changes are good for you.

I think being happy is also courage. The courage to accept yourself as you are and not hide your smile when you want to laugh. It's like a small rebellion against everything that imposes doubts and fears.

I recently caught myself thinking that happiness is as if I finally learned to trust myself. And it's very important to trust not someone, but yourself. Even when there is noise and doubts around.

And I wonder - do you think you are ready to see me like this - without embellishment, with simple, real happiness? Not the kind that needs to be justified or explained, but the kind that simply is? 😊

For me, this is now one of the most important questions - is it possible to be happy just like that, without reasons, and at the same time not lose yourself. And I am gradually learning to answer it.

Perhaps this is why no one is ready for me to suddenly become happy. Because it changes the rules of the game, changes expectations and makes you think. What do you think?

Natasha