Like, the other day someone made another joke about me never having tried something, and instead of laughing it off like I always do, I just... didn't react. I didn't get defensive, but I didn't perform gratitude for the joke either. And something shifted. It was like I gave myself permission to just be where I am without explaining it or feeling bad about it.

I think what's best for me is to stop seeking approval from people who are entertained by my inexperience. 💭 Not in a angry way, just in a calm way. I can be friendly with them, but I don't need to need their validation. And I definitely don't need to feel ashamed for being new to things.

What if instead of wondering why men find inexperience funny, I just... started valuing my own perspective on it? 🤔 Like, I'm discovering things on my own timeline. I'm learning what I actually like instead of what I think I'm supposed to like. Isn't that actually kind of powerful?

I think what's best for me is to trust myself more and the opinions of people who only see me as a joke a lot less. Do I have the strength to do that when I'm so used to seeking their approval?