And the worst part? I don't even know where it comes from anymore. Is it from comparing myself to other girls online? Is it something someone said to me years ago that I still carry? Is it just how my brain works? 😕

I'll be in a group of people and suddenly I'm counting how many times I spoke, analyzing if what I said was funny or stupid, wondering if anyone actually liked me or if they were just being polite. It's exhausting to live inside my own head sometimes. I think about how other people seem so comfortable being themselves, and I wonder what that feels like. Do they ever feel this way, or is it just me? 🤔

The thing is, logically I know this isn't true. I know I have good qualities. I know I'm kind and loyal and I try hard. But knowing something in your brain and feeling it in your heart are completely different things. And right now, my heart doesn't believe what my brain is telling it. 😞

I waste so much energy trying to be better, to be more, to be enough. And I'm starting to wonder if that energy could be used for something better—like actually enjoying my life instead of constantly critiquing it. But how do you turn that voice off? Does anyone actually know? 💫