I can be at a party with twenty people, all my friends, laughing and having fun, and I still feel this distance between me and everyone else. It's like I'm watching them through a window instead of actually being there with them. 🪟 They're all so present, so in the moment, and I'm somewhere else entirely.

Sometimes I wonder if it's because I think too much. Maybe if I just turned off my brain and let myself feel things instead of analyzing them, I would feel more connected. 💭 But I don't know how to do that. It's like my mind won't let me just be.

The weird thing is, I don't think I'm actually lonely when I'm alone. When I'm by myself, I feel fine. I feel okay. But when I'm with people, that's when the loneliness hits hardest. Is that normal? 🤔

Maybe the problem isn't that I need more people around me. Maybe the problem is that I need to find people who get this strange part of me. People who understand what it means to be in a crowd and still feel far away.

Do other people feel this way, or is it just me? 🌙