I can present in front of, I can argue with my mom for an hour, I can explain complicated things to people twice my age. But the second a guy I find even slightly interesting looks in my direction — I forget my own name 😅

My friend says it's just hormones and I need to relax. But I don't think it's that simple? It feels like something more. Like there's this tiny terrifying possibility that this person might matter. And that possibility alone is enough to completely short-circuit me.

I wonder if confident girls feel this too and just hide it really well. Or maybe they genuinely don't get butterflies and that's what confidence actually is — not the absence of feelings but the ability to walk straight while feeling all of them 🌸