And then I just… sit in the result of that equation feeling like I'm somehow behind in a race nobody told me I'd entered.

And the worst part? I know it's irrational. I know everyone moves at their own pace, I know what I see of others isn't the whole picture, I know all the right things to tell myself — and I still do it anyway 😅

I think it starts because I genuinely admire people. I see someone confident and capable and I light up — I want to be near that energy, I want to learn from it. But somewhere between admiration and observation, my brain takes a wrong turn and suddenly it's not about them anymore. It's about everything I feel I'm lacking. Which is a really unfair thing to do to someone who was just living their life in front of me.

I wonder if this is something you grow out of, or something you just slowly learn to catch before it spirals 💛 Because I'm very much still in the catching-it-after-the-spiral phase and I'd love to promote myself.

Natusya